Who the hell am I anyway?

That is a good question. I really thought I knew. If you asked me 5 years ago I would say I am a scientist, a mother, a good wife, a runner, a go getter, a strong and capable person.

And then…

Layoff #1 during COVID, that sucked. But hey, a new job came along shortly. No details needed, but it didn’t go well. For the company that is. It shut down last year, and I’ve been unemployed ever since.

Anxiety has been my companion my whole life, but after layoff #2 depression joined the team. As the job applications got rejected and the interviews went nowhere, I sank deeper.

I could tell a long story of attempts and failures but bottom line is this. I used to make 50 CAD an hour, now I feel accomplished if I make 50 CAD a day driving Uber eats. I used to run half-marathons, now I can’t run half a km. And the worst of it: my mental health is affecting everyone around me. Husband and kids included.

But thank the lord for modern medicine. Some new drugs are actually helping. Getting me off the couch. Away from full days spent watching YouTube. Into the mindset to make some positive changes.

So here I am. On the path to reclaim who I once was. Trying to become that functional go getter again.

Want to join in for the ride?